Dignity

Vacations are over.
University is back again,
and summer is on its last breaths.
I've felt this was the perfect time for me to move ahead onto the next steps of my existence.

Updated my self-publicity and then been acting like every move is the last one for some time.

Yesterday saw the happening of something that I do believe to be some kind of sign.
My then turned-off ray of light apparently fooled me into fully shining once again in front of my eyes.
After accepting the fact that I didn't have where to go, we were able to kindly smile at each other again, and also get updated about each other.

I suddenly remembered how fun it all has been, and decided to accept the free friendship I've been offered since the not-that-nice events of late 2007.
We resumed the acquaintance, in a friendship we should have never tried to step any further from.

This could all have been just a coincidence... But I can see through the simplistic smoke. I think it was some kind of "karma" I had to solve before making any move ahead.

Another interesting fact was something really wrong I've done yesterday.

I'm not good at accepting a "no", especially when given with absolutely no sense of politeness, so I simply followed simple steps, and got my soul washed... with blood.
Delightful, yet totally sick. I've seen some despair, but hopefully it's made someone learn some good lessons.

LOL

Well, both facts, I'd say, were things I've done in order to get a dignified ending to this phase of my life.

And given the part of the year we are now, and some things that appear to be shaping up for me to move on, I guess the following weeks will witness some slights (and why not radical) changes on my overall lifestyle and on my intern self as well.

 

Nice week!

Turn back the time!

This week was supposed, I guess, to bring a varied range of news and surprises. And if I'm thinking right, it has definitely succeeded.

It has, however, apparently followed a single guideline – nothing is so bad that can't get worse.

Working systems were desperately twisted, and to compensate idle moments, new ideas were implemented.
My view changed immediately so much that I didn't find the old way that dizzying anymore...

Academic life, just to vary a little, has gone even more menacing. I spent the whole last year wishing to get rid of dreadfully boring moments, but now that I've gotten it, changes have made things even worse.
Just like on work, the past situation now echoes infinitely more comforting when it comes to mind.

Terrible coincidence, uh?

Talking about past... I have said Uruguaiana is a terribly small city, haven't I? Well, everyday I'm proved more and more wrong – things are even worse.

Back to some years ago, I had a 4-days-long crush on an eventual, although candidly gorgeous girl, at a certain place, on scheduled nights.
Glitter, lights, music, summer... Eyes to eyes, but nowhere else.
End... end?

Much deeper back in past, a unique party on my garden. A dance number, and my partner was having a small childish attraction on me, nevertheless I've just discovered this.

Now, 2008, points have come together. The close summer girl and the deep past dance partner are the same girl, sister of one of my best friends.

We'd normally say "what a small world". I say "What a tiny rather small city!".

And, also, can't we turn back the time?

...And we're back to the runnin'

Vacations are over!
And shouldn't you take the exclamation mark as a sign of joyful excitement ;)

Yesterday college re-started, and there I was.
So nice to see old friendly faces. So not-that-nice to see some undesired new faces. But that's sooo not important.
Secretly I'd been expecting for the comeback, still I was finding it extremely nerd of me. But it's planted on me, this appreciation of being a student; somehow it kind of denotes youth, a full life ahead, and I like being in such a condition.

A welcome concert, and everyone unpolitely being indie - and being indie is being hype.
And soon before I could be the last one standing, I decided I should also take the hype fashion to my heart.

Back home, a fulminant sleepiness.

Since now I'm busy at night, my schedule is definitely full, and this means I'm not getting as much sleep as I normally do (do I get much?).
Bad moods and great moments of beloved stress await me soon ahead, but this time, weirdly, I'm not afraid nor despaired.
It is, I'd say, a consequence of my natural evolvement and my current guidelines - Let's not take things that hard. Just do things right and everything will fall into place.
Brazilian way anyone?

Other fields...
I'm kind of disappointed.
My oh-so-looked-forward dreams may not come true as fast as I've dreamt, what will force me to make some new efforts to get my wishes come true.
Sad.
Weird how can a part of a percent affect me directly twice and so bad.
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Wish me a nice back-to-school, I mean, back-to-college!
:)