Much north
the map, where the one-o-one road no longer reaches.
A long
messy summer it was; a third attempt to develop my life it was.
The very
well known path took me to all these places I was very familiar with.
Lines,
bubblegum to avoid the pain in my eardrums, bubblegum pop to avoid the pain in
my soul.
While
waiting on the hub, a stranger approached.
An overseas
resident, such stranger sported a rather snobbish attitude and a very vague if
not inexistent protecting instinct towards the mother language against the
influences from the adopted home influence.
An awkward
conversation began, just to exercise my abilities to remain kind and friendly
even in the most hostile situation.
This,
however, went beyond the mere cordiality; it was daring.
As it soon
became clear, the stranger was in a blatant attempt to put my own experience to
test, maybe to prove a point, maybe to prove me wrong, maybe as a pure ego
trip.
I then not
only managed to be cordial – I also became intriguing, to the point I was
gifted a package from the Alps, which, as the stranger insisted to point, was a
recurring travelling destination.
Take it as a 'good luck' gift, the stranger said, after learning
my goals on the terminal.
As the
stranger faded in the distance – to never be seen again –, I read, a little
mesmerized, the wrapping.
It said
"nice to sweet you".
Well, I thought, nice to sweet you too.
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Upon
reaching my destination, the familiar heat was a warm welcoming embrace albeit
the distance and the time were fatal.
The water
was not boiling at once and my heart missed the (expected) craving.
Slightly
numb, I reckon, I reached the very same place where, not too long ago, was a
marking point of my youth dream.
In hopes
that the northern heat was to become my lucky charm to succeed, I prayed and
went to war.
After
befriending with folks from the South – how unsurprising, may I say – I did the
best my luck and knowledge would support.
My dreams
failed, yet again.
On the
other hand, vacations unveiled.
The warmer
sands, the brighter sun, the dearest folks.
That was
the perfect scenario to my ritual of spiritual cleaning and renewal.
I'm ready to start anew, I, deep inside, prayed, although still
startled by the imaginary wall built between us.
Time passes.
People take hands. They leave hands. They look up to a new direction. They take
new steps. They lick the edges. They jump ahead.
And then they are just never coming back.
And that is
how life keeps moving.
We are
born. We grow apart. We move on.
Sitting at
the restaurant, prior to the farewell, I contemplated their faces, in all the
young glory.
Together by
heart, we lived what seemed to me as being a lifetime.
Northern
wind, however, unveiled that such era was over.
Inside, we had all changed.
Inside, we had all changed.
The good recollections
will always remain, as the door is closed shut.
You then
again learn; there is no forever.
The plane
was due and the south was awaiting me.
No posh
strangers in the way back; no much drama – much in reverse, a lot of joyful friendly
laughter – when reaching the old Harbour town.
And it was
then time to look for newer forms of building my dreams.
For nothing remains still.
Happy week, dear
reader.
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